pneumonia psalm

my chest is heavy
my breath unsteady
can't rest
this weight on my chest
it's been the same
for a while now
there's so much pain
i don't know how
and why
and still
i will fill
these lungs with air
not spare
one moment to raise
my voice in praise
to tell you
i love you

Indiscribable

If ink flowed through my veins
And I had quills for fingers
If I had all the words
That were ever said or written

Still I could not describe you

If colours burst from my heart
The universe my canvas
If I had seen the whole world
Imagined everything there is

Still I could not paint you

If I sang like an angel
And played every instrument
If I heard heaven's melody
And felt the rhytmn of the earth

Still I could not sing of you

You are beautiful beyond description
You are beautiful beyond description
You are beautiful beyond description

Hope in the Neon Wilderness

My distorted eyes, my heart wash clean
With hope I set my eyes on the unseen

Sin City & Neon Wilderness

When your cycling mind decides to slide
Down to reside inside your pants
When your heart's own darker parts
Creep into your feet, your hands
When you give up the fight at the sight
Of the first bright neon sign tonight
When twilight downright downplays
Wrong into right, and black into white
You've failed to feel what's true and real,
Deception steals the wheel and steers
With grip of steel until you'll kneel before
The avenging neon angel on the floor.

sorry

once again i'm sorry
fallen short of your glory
once again i choose myslef
over truth
over you
want to say the words
(often said and heard)
i say them and still i hurt
you
you who gave your life for me
still your wounded body
i nail back to the tree
i know you'll frogive me
but how can i say i'm sorry
knowing i'll do it again?